My Life Is An Open Book

Hi everyone,
I know it has been so long since I've written.
Not that any of you would actually read or comment on anything anyways...

It was actually Elliven that brought my dusty journal to my attention. I see the link to LJ in my tabs every time I use the internet, but with virtual school, Twitter, Facebook, and catching up on old House MD, Lost, and Grey's Anatomy episodes, I have had no time to write on here.
I have however found the time to write in my journal every single day, until recently when I started a new one and it's taking a while to break it in.

So some stuff that's going on in my life right now...

School: You probably don't know me enough to care, but if you do...
I am so close to finishing the year with at least 3 A's and 3 B's.
I take the SAT and ACT again next month, well I take the ACT for the first time.
I take my two AP tests on Tuesday and Wednesday this week. AP- Psychology and AP English Language and Composition.
And yeah, I'll update you on how all that goes.
Oh and this summer I'm going to COTTEY COLLEGE for a week for a summer program they have for science. I really want to go there when I graduate from High School. It's a private school in Missouri. Very small and its an all girls school!!!!
Apparently I'm super-psyched!

Life: Ahhhh...(sigh) So much since last time.
I now have my sweet love, Elliven, who has been through so much to make me his, evn though I keep reminding him to wait for me even now...
I have recently come to the realization that I am and have been a very selfish person. :( I was so overwhelmed by my history with this heart problem (metaphorical, but still just as serious) that I broke down while on the phone with Elliven, this shook things up between us, but he and I are going to work together to help each other through any problem. \
It's not only a relationship problem that I'm selfish. It is such a big problem that it takes over other areas of my life as well.
Only God can heal me, and I must let him do his work in me and open my heart to his changing power.
I have un-isolated my relationship with Elliven as soon as it became official that we were together.
We have grown ups watching us, and though it may be uncomfortable at times, it's okay with me,at least, if not with Elliven too.
Somethings have definitely changed since the last time I wrote. like how I've become prone to ending online messages, statuses, and updates with ... and sometimes more than three......
Ha!

BOOKS: I have been busy but I have news on the lit that I read anyways.
My AP Lang class has one book left to read on the list. Well, it isn't a book, it's Twelfth Night, Or What You Will.
We read that in about two weeks In-Class, YES! I really want to be a main character again.
Oh, we read Cyrano De Bergerac last month and I was Roxane for the last half of the play. That's the way we read the plays, in parts.
On my own I'm reading War of the Worlds, by H.G. Wells. The 3rd Unicorn Chronicles I mentioned last month, and a comic book every now and then. Right now... Top Ten, by Alan Moore (same guy who wrote Watchmen!).

So that's a lot. Ohhhh, and by the way, I met a girl at my High School who knows Gerard Way personally from when she was a kid. He Baby sat her!!!!! OMG I'm so sad she's a senior. She talk about what He's like all the time and I love to hear it all......

I want to write more!

Abigail Dawning........

Okay ha can I even pretend that people read this???
HA HA HA!
I'm kind of insane. I wanted to say that, after almost two months ofbeing grounded, I got my cell-phone back!!!
Then two minutes later I succeeded in loosing it again.
I screamed and threw a temper tantrum at my father for loosing my Ipod.

In other news...

• I have written in my journal book every day since the 21st of FEBRUARY. That is a long time to not miss a day, on the other hand I have missed many days here. Maybe I should go for everyday here and not so much in my journal-book. Hmmm? I like my journal-book though.

A lot of space

• I stalk Gerard Way on Twitter, but I've been doing that ever since they (MCR) started twitter (Don"t JUDGE ME I know I'm obssessed)

More Space

• I've read two books, very good ones! Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac (amazing) and Max, the latest Maximum Ride book, (amazement) and The The Umbrella Academy comics (but they are in there own category)AMAZING!!!!

My SPACE (ha-ha)

• I'M ON SPRING BREAK and I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY SPARE TIME!!!!!

Abigail Dawning

Hi,
(bigger update)

I hope my being grounded doesn't make anyone who reads me regularly sad or bored or whatever, but I have a lot more to write today, because it's a weekend and I can't resist much longer.

First of all let me explain why I was grounded. For three days and I was reading and falling asleep in my math class (Algebra II). I wasn't turning in the homework either and the teacher was concerned so he called my parents. My dad found out first and he took away my cell phone, i-pod, and my computer privileges. Then he let my mom know,who was not at home and possibly could have remained oblivious to my actions until she came home and I was in bed, safe from her wrath. But Noooo, my life isn't complicated enough so my father had to let her know immediately that I was in danger of failing, just to frustrate me!
So anyways, my parents take my grades very seriously and even though I've been doing my homework diligently for the past two weeks I still don't have my stuff back or full time internet access.
Which leads to explaining all the updates I've been posting because I wouldn't want to confuse or abandon the few people who do read this...

College: I found a college I'm interested in. It's an all girls school, but they're interested in me. A great opportunity for me to have easy access into school. Well, not easy, but at least a higher chance than others. They have taken personal interests in my have contacted my mother to get to me. My mom is thrilled and so am I. A private, all girls college, wow!

Elliven: He and I are getting along great. We are still just friends, for now, but we have had some major advancements...

Reading: Lord of The Flies. Ahhh, great book. I'm so happy that I finally finished it! Sad that the good supporting characters were killed of, but even the best books have deaths that help it along, make better sense, give the plot more meaning, stuff like that.
               Watchmen. Yes I did basically read it because of the movie coming out(because It's rated R and I wanted to know why and discover the story for my self), but also because My Chemical Romance is obsessed over it and I largely obsess over them. It influenced them and so I wanted to read it too, at least to see what all the excitement was about. Yeah it is good.
I love it. The story is just what I wanted. It's strange, sometimes I look for a specific story, not a genre, but an actuall story. That's why it's so hard for me to find a good book to read, but I found one. I found a story that I've wanted to read right there in Watchmen.

Thinking: I do this so much I don't even remember what I think about sometimes. Really, anyone reading this should know that thinking is important. It's not just "Oh, everyone sensible thinks"; it's an activity. It takes no skill and it's the most freeing thing you can do. There are no boundaries, you simply let your mind wander and you're thinking and relaxing and having fun. Well, depending on what you're thinking about. It's daydreaming really, but it helps to call it thinking if you don't want to get in trouble when you're caught while you're supposed to be working. I do it all the time!

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!!!!- Exited about MCR. I check out they're website as much as I can. They are working so fast, or at least it feels that way. maybe it's because I'm watching them so much and I know what they're doing. Like how my mom spends so long at the store when she goes without me, but it doesn't seem like it takes forever when I'm with her. I still find out it was the same length of time, it just seems like she doesn't say out long when I'm with her. That's the way it is with MCR. I bet it's been a long time and that I'd be agonizing if I had no idea what they were doing or any news whatsoever, but Gerard and most of the rest of them post often to let their fans know whats up. It doesn't even have to be about music. Really I am so excited that they talk about other stuff. I feel like I get a look inside their minds, even if it's as simple as the cereal they eat or video games. Ha! I can't beleive it's them but I don't doubt it, which makes no sense.

THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY!!!!!!!- Ha! more exclamations on this. I am so on the edge of me seat to read the next one. Really if you haven't found this comic book, read it, thought it was cool, then I hope I don't know you. Okay, not really, but it is really amazing.
I don't want to ruin it for you, so go find it and read it yourself!!!! I have a super long thing to write about Gerard being an author but I'll do that seperately.

Friends: I found friends at school who are just as strange as me. I started eating lunch outside early this year and chose these random kids to sit with for a reason I don't remember. At first I thought they talked about random things, which didn't make sense, but I've made a connection with the stuff they talk about. It's zombies, and video games, and manga, comics, japanese television. A whole bunch of crazy, that I LOVE!!!! I just can't beleive after all this time, I've discovered people that are just as insane as I am. I brought them the Umbrella Academy to read and they love it too! So I love them, my cool school friends.

Movies: The Prestiege. I just watched it this morning. AMAZING. The prestiege at the end oh, my, gosh! There was nothing better I've seen all month. Of course I havn't seen a lot.
Okay, on a different level,but to the same extent, I love Eagle Eye. I just saw it last week. I love movies about technology taking total control and stuff like that. Yummy science fiction!!!! Yes, yummy.

Alright I think that's all for now. When I get the chance I'll post about my obsession with Gerard Way and sometime later I'll post StoryTime agian.

Abigail Dawning

(I wrote all this on paper in school today)
Hi,
I'm sitting in class right now, but there's nothing to do so I'm writing this for all of you.
Okay, so I have been so excited the past few days, about My Chemical Romance and the cover song they did of Bob Dylan's Desolation Row for the Watchmen movie this march. The song was released on Itunes yesterday but I can't buy it because I don't have an account.
SAD!

Anyways, I've just been sitting here thinking about what the biggest influence in life is right now because of what Gerard wrote on their website yesterday about Watchmen (I know, I'm a stalker).
It hasn't been music that's been the greatest influence on my life(so far), except for how obsessed I am over My Chemical Romance. Other bands I like are Linkin Park, AFI, Fall Out Boy, Panic At The Disco, some of Boys Like Girls, and a bit of Cute Is What We Aim For. Also I've recently discovered Airborne Toxic Event, which I like too. I like songs by John Meyer and I love anything by Michael Buble, anything instumental (elevator music), also Jazz, and Classic (Mozart, Vivaldi, Bach...)
So much music but really My Chemical Romance is what it all come's down to for me.

What has influenced my life more than music is what I read.
My father used to read to me and my brothers when we were really little. He would read his childhood favorites,
like Chitti-Chitti-Bang-Bang and the Chronicles Of Narnia,  the classic nursery rhymes, new books, and whatever we asked for really. Then wehen I started school I was already at a fith grade reading level. I was in an advanced reading class, everyone took a reading class separate from their homeroom in elementary school where I lived. My class read books, as a class, like: Island of the Blue Dolphins by Scott O'Dell, Freckle Juice and Judy Bloom's other books. In third grade I went to the next up elementary school and the reading program there was quite unique. The teachers read to us, but we read to each other, to the class, and individually. My teacher started to introduce to us books in classic American literature, I remember Call of The Wild by Jack London. The first book that I loved was The Giver by Lois Lowry. I bought it three years later and I've read it many times. I had to read it in class again in 8th grade. This book has inspired me and I constantly find my self looking for more utopian themed books that can compare. I've even thought about writing my own own day, but that'll come later...

At the same time, third grade, I was very into science. I didn't even learn it in class but I definitely knew what it was. I was and continue to be in love with nature, and life and the way life works. I long to know more I'm captivated by it all. I remember earning the Student Of The Month Award in third grade for having high aspirations. My teacher had overheard or I guess asked me and I told her I wanted to be a scientist. Later I changed it to an author, but that was in middle school and even then I always changed back to wanting to be a scientist. In third grade all I knew was I wanted to mix "potions". I 'm not sure when but I started to think of science as magical, probably after I read Harry Potter, because that's first place I learned about magic. I think it's highly ironic since magic is defined as events that occur against the laws of science, but I relate them to each other because of the allure they both have.  People are mystified by magic and unexplainable wonders in the world, but science is what draws me in and grabs my attention, my interest, my soul.
It is my passion and greatest influence.

Abigail Dawning

PS- Ironically, I have a "C" in Chemistry.
PS.S.- Oh and since I'm in class right now I should mention this kid I think is Hot just because he wears an MCR every single day.
Today it's the "I Survived The Black Parade" Tee-Shirt.


(On a side note I would like to mention that I am a Christian, not an Evolutionist, so I don't trust, believe, and worship science. I just greatly appreciate and wholly admire the Creation God has made and made possible to continue through the laws of science which He may break with His wondrous miracles as He pleases. Thank you. - Abigail Dawning)

Hi,
I was thinking of something to write because I haven't written since hmmm, the last time I wrote.
I changed my mind about what I want to go to college for, again! I have returned to my idea of becoming an editor. I can do it. I would love to and I really have just been completely inspired by books my whole life, so much that I would love to help people feel the same way. I want to be part of the process. If I can't publish my own books then I want to be part of the team that makes a great book. I feel the need to inspire others the way I have been inspired. I can't explain it better than that.
I can't stopped thinking of the books that I read through out my life and of the great ones that stand out. The way a good book makes me feel, oh I just get so excited and inspired. That Is what I want to do for other people I want to help make a book that good. I want for people to say, "Oh my gosh, this book is so good I have to read it again, and I have have to tell all my friends about it."
I know that I need to be an editor because I can edit books to get them published and I can write my own at the same time.

So basically I didn't know what to write about until I started, but there; I said something.

Abigail Dawning

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Most adults haven't read 6 out of these 100
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible (old testament only)
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman (Golden Compass only; the rest is on THE LIST)
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare (nearly all of them)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (this, however, would be part of #33
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo