HI, I went to bed after midnight so this dream wasn't until today.
Explanation: Dramatacized-----
I was completely in love with ElliveN in my dream. He and I were out of college and we were going to be married soon.
There was this girl, who liked ElliveN too. She stood in the distance everywhere we went together and looked at us with jealousy. Then one day, I went away for a vacation without him. I was away for a long time.
When I came back I was so anxious to see him that I ran to his house. Someone told me he was at the grocery store so I turned around and ran there. I saw him in the apples section testing the fruit. Facing away from me. I walked up to him and hugged him. He didn't hug back.
I checked to make sure it was ElliveN and not some stranger I was hugging. It was him,"Let go of me."
I was shocked. I asked him what was wrong. I was back didn't he want to see me ask how I was, pull me back in his arms, anything thing like that.
He said He got over me. I stood there as he pushed his cart to the check out, just horrified at the scene.
He had promised me more years of love than he had life in him to live.
He had sworn I would break his heart if I didn't love him.
He had assured me I was the only one his heart could ever belong to.
He convinced me that he would DIE before he couldn't love me anymore.
How could he be doing this? My life was for him! My heart burned for him! In that one moment all I had was ripped to shreds.
I ran out of the store. Down the street and into a small circle at the end of a subdivision. There were kids skating in circles, rollerblading and jogging. One of the joggers looked at me his eye agreeing with the tears flowing freely from mine.
I stared at the ground. ElliveN. ElliveN. ElliveN. The only thought in my head was ElliveN.
I looked up at last, hours had passed. I wandered up the street the way I had come, still sniveling. I walked past the store and shuddered. I walked all the way to my little apartment. I fell asleep on the couch in tears.
I had rented it temporarily because I was going to move in with ElliveN one day. We were doing things the old fashioned way. Were. How could this hapen to me?
The next morning I ran to clear my head. I saw the same jogger from yesterday, I saw happy people, I saw couples, and I saw myself in window reflections, alone. I started to cry again. I went to college the next day. I was in no condition to learn. I felt my life had no more meaning without ElliveN. I climbed the satirs. I saw him. ElliveN was at school. He didn't even go here. So why was he here?
Did he come to tell me he made a mistake, that he was drunk in the store and didn't recognize me, that he missed me, that he loved me?
He looked down at the stairs I was climbing and smiled, but it looked kind of off. I smile back anyways. He extended his arm. A bit off, but I started to reach out for it but a pale hand grabbed his hand first. I burned in anger ready to turn and scream at any woman who dared to have touched my love, but his pulled her up and to him. No, no ,no, no, NO! The jealous girl.
He pulled her closer and kissed her. I almost fell forward on the final step. My heart stopped in mourning for my soul.
How can this be? I must be dreaming. The plane that took me home must have crashed and brought me to hell. This could not be happening in my real life. I looked at him and her together. I shook him. "ElliveN, You're supposed to love me. How could you. You're supposed to love ME!" I screamed at him. He shrugged and shook me off. I walked to class, remembering that that jealous biotch was in at least 4 of them with me. The Horror!
The first class finished fine, but I rushed out so I wouldn't see them together. I saw my asian fiend as I slid down the stairs. She laughed at me, but I need to get as far away from here as possible. I slid down the next flight, though there was a handicapped guy in a wheelchair getting helped up the ramp beside the stairs and I almost crashed into him. I turn the corner sharply and sledded down the last of the stairs. Maybe I could transfer schools. I ran off of campus bacause whether I was returning or not, I needed a break from the backstabber and my heart breaker.
My heart. He promised he'd never hurt me. How could he be so cruel?
I jogged back to the appartment. Not able to breathe deeply enough to continue standing and open the door, I sat down on the front step. I was crushed. He ruined my life. I was gone for three weeks and he ruined my LIFE!
The jogger that I kept seeing walked by. He stopped as he saw my tears once again and came to the step was on. He searched inhi pocket for something and pulled out a packet of Kleenex. He handed them to me. I looked up and thanked him. He asked to sit down. I was completely overcome with appreciation that anyone who could show sympathy to a pathetic girl like me. I nodded. He sat down.
We talked. His name was Fredrick___( outside of my dream I don't know him, recognize him, or anyone like him)______
He had seen me a couple of times running in tears away from who knows what.
I told him about my situation, the tears rolling faster as I did.
He rubbed my arm in attempt to comfort me without being awkward and uninvited. I turned and hugged his letting my restrained tears pour our with the rest. The saddest part was he was wearing a leather jacket.
He patted my back.
I thanked him. I realized that anyone who could say thay loved you with a love stronger than their own heart beat and abandon you the moment your gone could never haev loved you that much to begin with.
ElliveN never loved me. I went inside.
Later that day ElliveN came be my apartment. I was almost excited for a moment as I looked out the peep hole and saw him, alone, but I remembered my moment of truth and hushed the excitement. I was right for that too, He came to take back my engagement ring. No remorse in his eyes, no apology, almost as if I was a stranger to hima and he needed what I had.
At first I wouldn't give it to him.
"No, you cheepo. You can't reuse an old engagement ring, go get a new one this one's mine!"
But he insisted. I was pulling it off, "Before I give it to you as you demand.I demand to have a reason for your betreyal."
He stopped as if the request was strange, as if there was nothing to exlain, as if I was delerious for thinking we had a relationship. So I reminded him. I pulled him to me by his collar and kissed him like he should have when I saw him in the store, with all the passion I could give. He pushed me away, hard, and shouted at me. I couldn't understand what he was saying but it definately had nothing to do with reason and nothing to do with love. He pushed me into a corner of the house and spat at me feet. Then he pulled the ring off my finger and backed up.
"Well, I wouldn't want a keepsake of you anyways! I hope that Bitch is happy, because you are no charmer I'll tell you that! I wouldn't want to be reminded of you anyways. Take it. TAKE IT!" I screamed. I reached my hands around and picked something up and threw it at him. He dogged my perfect aim and walked calmly to the door. "Good-bye... You shouldn't come to the wedding."
I could have killed him with all the anger and pain in my heart.
I walked out of my apartment. The jogger, Fredrick was there. He hugged me again.
I told him what happened. He invited me into his place just to get away from the bad feelings in my house.
He lived right next door. He taked to me as he cooked dinner. He talked about life, his work,his family, and asked about me every now and then. I didn't want to talk but I answered his questions. I asked him if he was ever in love.
He started to tell me about highschool and about this girl. He spoke of her so fondly. I asked him what happened.
"She died. It was a car accident."
I was going to cry when he put his hand on mine and shook his head. "Don't"
So I didn't. He brought dinner to his table and we sat down to eat. I aske him if he would mind if said a little prayer. He told me to go ahead, or he would have anyways. I asked for forgivness to my angery actions and thanked God for a new friend, then I asked God to help me forgive and forget Elliven.
"Amen." Fredrick repeated as I finished. We ate.
I asked him what school he went to.
It was the same as mine!
I asked him if he knew me in school. He had known me he said, but I didn't know him.
"Did we have class together?"
"Two or three every year. You probably don't remeber because I wore glasses."
I was amazed.
When dinner was fnished and I helped him wash up. He thanked me for my help and I hugged him for everything.
"Thanks for helping me out too, Fredrick."
I leaned away from him and gave him a kiss goodbye.
THAT'S WHEN I WOKE UP....
Abigail Dawning
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