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Strange Feelings
HI,
I've been really active on the site today.
I was just listening to MCR and I was reminded of something that I was feeling when I was going through depression a year ago.
As a Christian I recognize that feeling as not tear evoking,throat wrenching, manic depression, but desperation for something to fill a bottomless hole in me.
I'm not saying that My chem is bad music. I really love them. But they can't fill that bottomless hole in me. I turned to them to meet all my emotional needs and faced everyone else with lying smiles.
Eventually those smiles turned evil and menacing and I just cried all the time.
For me nothing could fill that hole only God. Now I know what that strange feeling was. Emptiness and desperation to fill that hole.
Not depression and anger.
~Abby D~
PS: My mom made me write two essays today. Character Enrichment.
One was on "My life 10 years from now and how I got there" the other was on "Procrastination".
contemplativeI've been really active on the site today.
I was just listening to MCR and I was reminded of something that I was feeling when I was going through depression a year ago.
As a Christian I recognize that feeling as not tear evoking,throat wrenching, manic depression, but desperation for something to fill a bottomless hole in me.
I'm not saying that My chem is bad music. I really love them. But they can't fill that bottomless hole in me. I turned to them to meet all my emotional needs and faced everyone else with lying smiles.
Eventually those smiles turned evil and menacing and I just cried all the time.
For me nothing could fill that hole only God. Now I know what that strange feeling was. Emptiness and desperation to fill that hole.
Not depression and anger.
~Abby D~
PS: My mom made me write two essays today. Character Enrichment.
One was on "My life 10 years from now and how I got there" the other was on "Procrastination".