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Emotion- Abby n' Cee!
Cee: HI Abby, what ya wanna talk about today!
Abby: Well I wanted to talk about one thing but, I saw Juno and I suddenly thought of something else or at least something more.
Cee: Oh, okay. Juno was a good movie wat did you think about?
Abby: I started to think about my friend. I just out of nowhere started to think about him. Right after the movie I started thinking about him.
It was sad. I think it was because of the scene where Paulie wins the race and realizes Juno's not there because she's having the baby, then he shows up at the hospital to see her.
Cee: Why did that scene make you think of him. I know him there's nothing he and Paulie have in common. Well maybe he would support a girl he knocked up just like Paulie but still. There's no correlation.
Abby: Ha- ha, Cee. (sigh) It's just that He was telling me something a few days ago that kind of stirred up some unwanted feelings and one of those would just so happen to be- Jealousy. Then when I saw Juno I kind of wished that that had been Me and him. Minus the pregnancy of course! Especially the part where Juno realizes she's in love with him and he admits he has been too, and he is.
Cee: Oh Abby. I can't believe you! You know whats good for you and he's not it. What happened with letting go.
Abby: I couldn't help it. One minute I was fine with him and I was in a steady release. Then he tells me something I shouldn't have listened to anyways and I'm all angry and jealous and hopeless again. Gosh Cee, It's not like I want to feel this way.
Cee: I didn't say you did.
Abby: I still want to be only his best friend. I know there's nothing more there. I just can't help it right now.It feels too normal to have that whole there and I didn't like getting used to it the first time and I don't want it there again.
Why was I so stupid to think I could handle it? Why Cee!? I shouldn't have let him tell me. I shouldn't and now it's too late. I'm upset and it's all my own fault.
Cee: Because your a good friend and you wanted to be there for him when he had something to tell you. A GOOD friend does that. But a GOOD friend would know what it would cost the other friend and wouldn't have asked to begin with.
Abby: No it IS my fault I told him I could take it. I knew what he would say.
Cee: (arched eyebrows)
Abby: Cee, he's a guy. He couldn't have known what it would have done to me to tell me what he did. Even after knowing everything about me that he possibly could.
Cee: Wow Abby you really are taking all the blame for your own pain!
Abby: (glare)
Cee: Ya, and what are you gonna do about it? Huh? Are you gonna cry until the hurt goes away? Do you think that will help?
Abby: NO! I know it wont help.
Some friend you are Cee.
Cee: You NEED someone who cares about you and tells you the honest truth. Listen Abby. Your special to me. I've never had another friend like you. I know everything you want me to know and so I have to protect you from what you do to yourself most of all.
Of course you could just skip me and go straight to your MOM!
Abby: No. (whining) I don't want to let her know she was right. I was doing so well on my own, with everything about "I've gotten over him and things aren't the same anymore."
Cee: That was true at the time, but just barely. Now its not true. Your not as over him as you thought.
You need to get over him because nothing is gonna change.
Abby: I know that. I just don't know how?
Cee: Its gonna sound all religious and cliche...?
Abby: Fine with me.
Cee: You have to trust that God can put you back together. He knows your broken and he loves you and wishes you wouldn't give your heart away so easily. He loves more that anyone could and he wants to heal your pain. I know you know that but you're not trusting him. He is like the fairy tail prince that comes to your rescue when you have no other way out. Except he's been wanting to be by your side the whole time, you just have to let him in your tall tower. Only you have the key.
Abby: Your right. I know your right. So I just pray?
Cee: Ya! You should have been praying. You should read the Bible about God's love. God allows pain because he wants people to look to him for rescue and love him with all their heart. You should always keep praying.
Abby: That does sound cliche.
Cee: Only because its true. True things get repeated a lot, sometimes.
But most of the time people don't really take it in so it just keeps getting said.
Abby: Thanks Cee. Thanks for caring for me. I didn't think that anything this deep could come from Juno. And it wasn't really what the movie was about either.
Cee: I know! That is some good movie though. Love ya!
Abby: By Cee.
~AbbyD~
Abby: Well I wanted to talk about one thing but, I saw Juno and I suddenly thought of something else or at least something more.
Cee: Oh, okay. Juno was a good movie wat did you think about?
Abby: I started to think about my friend. I just out of nowhere started to think about him. Right after the movie I started thinking about him.
It was sad. I think it was because of the scene where Paulie wins the race and realizes Juno's not there because she's having the baby, then he shows up at the hospital to see her.
Cee: Why did that scene make you think of him. I know him there's nothing he and Paulie have in common. Well maybe he would support a girl he knocked up just like Paulie but still. There's no correlation.
Abby: Ha- ha, Cee. (sigh) It's just that He was telling me something a few days ago that kind of stirred up some unwanted feelings and one of those would just so happen to be- Jealousy. Then when I saw Juno I kind of wished that that had been Me and him. Minus the pregnancy of course! Especially the part where Juno realizes she's in love with him and he admits he has been too, and he is.
Cee: Oh Abby. I can't believe you! You know whats good for you and he's not it. What happened with letting go.
Abby: I couldn't help it. One minute I was fine with him and I was in a steady release. Then he tells me something I shouldn't have listened to anyways and I'm all angry and jealous and hopeless again. Gosh Cee, It's not like I want to feel this way.
Cee: I didn't say you did.
Abby: I still want to be only his best friend. I know there's nothing more there. I just can't help it right now.It feels too normal to have that whole there and I didn't like getting used to it the first time and I don't want it there again.
Why was I so stupid to think I could handle it? Why Cee!? I shouldn't have let him tell me. I shouldn't and now it's too late. I'm upset and it's all my own fault.
Cee: Because your a good friend and you wanted to be there for him when he had something to tell you. A GOOD friend does that. But a GOOD friend would know what it would cost the other friend and wouldn't have asked to begin with.
Abby: No it IS my fault I told him I could take it. I knew what he would say.
Cee: (arched eyebrows)
Abby: Cee, he's a guy. He couldn't have known what it would have done to me to tell me what he did. Even after knowing everything about me that he possibly could.
Cee: Wow Abby you really are taking all the blame for your own pain!
Abby: (glare)
Cee: Ya, and what are you gonna do about it? Huh? Are you gonna cry until the hurt goes away? Do you think that will help?
Abby: NO! I know it wont help.
Some friend you are Cee.
Cee: You NEED someone who cares about you and tells you the honest truth. Listen Abby. Your special to me. I've never had another friend like you. I know everything you want me to know and so I have to protect you from what you do to yourself most of all.
Of course you could just skip me and go straight to your MOM!
Abby: No. (whining) I don't want to let her know she was right. I was doing so well on my own, with everything about "I've gotten over him and things aren't the same anymore."
Cee: That was true at the time, but just barely. Now its not true. Your not as over him as you thought.
You need to get over him because nothing is gonna change.
Abby: I know that. I just don't know how?
Cee: Its gonna sound all religious and cliche...?
Abby: Fine with me.
Cee: You have to trust that God can put you back together. He knows your broken and he loves you and wishes you wouldn't give your heart away so easily. He loves more that anyone could and he wants to heal your pain. I know you know that but you're not trusting him. He is like the fairy tail prince that comes to your rescue when you have no other way out. Except he's been wanting to be by your side the whole time, you just have to let him in your tall tower. Only you have the key.
Abby: Your right. I know your right. So I just pray?
Cee: Ya! You should have been praying. You should read the Bible about God's love. God allows pain because he wants people to look to him for rescue and love him with all their heart. You should always keep praying.
Abby: That does sound cliche.
Cee: Only because its true. True things get repeated a lot, sometimes.
But most of the time people don't really take it in so it just keeps getting said.
Abby: Thanks Cee. Thanks for caring for me. I didn't think that anything this deep could come from Juno. And it wasn't really what the movie was about either.
Cee: I know! That is some good movie though. Love ya!
Abby: By Cee.
~AbbyD~
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